I'm about to scream...just to get the frustration out of my body. How can people do this?? This is torture. I'm all mixed emotions right now. Some memories are stuck in my head. Anything will remind me of him. I try to avoid pondering. Sometimes i feel like crying from being so overwhelmed. But then i remind myself that many have done this and made their marriage stronger. Waking up alone and knowing he's not here, is just disheartening. I have to stay strong and not give in...
All that keeps going through my head is what my Major said. That
"the first 10 days are the hardest. Then, it gets better."This is my first go around. I miss him sooo much. Please God give me strength. I am in a new house. Only about two weeks worth of memories here...
The cat is all i have with me for comfort.
I wish i could get over this now.
Or sleep until he's back and this would have all been a bad dream.
