missing my love

Sometimes it feels like I'm waiting for my life to start. Then when I look at it under a different light. It has started. I think the reason for this is because the person I'm sharing it with isn't here. He's off doing great things for the Army and this awesome country. I wish I could just live my life instead of sitting around waiting for it start. I have found a new hate in being alone. It's a new experience to overcome. It will strenghten our relationship. I love him and miss him soo much. I miss my husband. I love him with all my <3.

I wish he were home already! This war needs to end so I can have my husband back.

<3

Stick it!

Do you ever feel like hiding under a rock? Like your against the world and you just feel like sticking the finger? I feel like that right now.  Had a Hectic week, went from an accident to figuring out the rest of my life. Stuck with a delimma of choosing between a for sure paycheck with no freedom to infinite freedom and an unsure paycheck. It's between being happy and being unhappy. Should I stay unsatisfied with promised pay or happy and possibly poor? I have my husband, but I dont want all the weight on him to be responsible for the household. Granted I'll be utillizing the benefits of doing my service in the Army. I'll be back to being a Full Time Student and hopefully a Part Time Job. Sometimes I wonder if I'm being selfish and thinking about my happiness than a secure future for my husband and I. Maybe one day a Family. I can reclass but happiness and satisfaction is still unsure. All I'll ever know is my time so far in the Army. Should I just take the Risk and keep this lifestyle with little or no Bumps as far as finance? Or should I follow my lifetime goals and just persue my degree and trade my ACUs in for Scrubs?

 So much, so soon. I've been waiting for my ETS date to come. But the closer I get, the more nervous I get. Wish I could know the outcome of each choice and choose. If only life were so simple and easy. 

today was just one of those days that you thought would never end.

I think it would have been better if i could subtract some people from it. 

I love and miss my husband 

wish he were home.

I have memories to keep me happy.

But they cant compare to his touch.

I love him

I love him

Just Pictures

 New York City

 kitters

 Jason

 Us

Week 4

Hey there,
It's now June. Last Weekend was my one year anniversary. It was the hardest day ever. I kept busy all day to keep my mind off the day. I did receive the most beautiful flowers in the morning from my husband. It was very romantic. I love my husband. It took the edge off the day. I'm looking for new ways to past time. I'm now thinking of new hobbies I can do. So far, I want to sew. I want to create dresses anything. I love browsing Blogs on DIY Crafts. I love to try. Since I'm married, this might come in handy in the Future..lol. Nex stop is to master the art of BAKING, uhm..cookies. I'm terrible at cookies. Which is why I buy the frozen ready to bake cookies. 

I'm not the average woman that's familiar with "womanly duties". Sounds like something from the 50s. I'm more modern. I rather be outside than doing the "kitchen duties".  I rather have my husband do the cooking. I'm horrible I know. But, i'm getting better. I love Green Beans and chicken breast. Simple and Easy. I'm no Julia Child or Susie Homemaker.