MISSING MY HUBS

I miss my hubs.
I can't stand watching movies solo.
I can't stand eating meals alone.
I hate waking up alone.
He needs to be here.
I can't wait until he's home.
I can't wait until I can be around someone who understands me inside and out.
It seems like an eternity. 
I'm at my happiest when he calls me.
When I think I'm against the World, he's by my side to hold my hand.
I love the flowers and roses he sends me. 
I love the letters he sent to put a smile on my face.
The hardest part is him being a world away from me. 
The most hardest moments were the first couple of days. 
The most hardest part was having nobody to talk to when the world seemed so unfair.
The Time difference was difficult to plan around for conversations and online chats. 
thank goodness that he's almost home, because i missed him so much.

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far away love

my best friend,

my partner in crime,

my safety blanket,

my personal chef,

my therapist,

my band aid,

...my far away love.

i wish for him everyday,

all the the seconds of everyday, he is always on my mind,

filled with the excitement of living our lives together.

 our lives may not be perfect

but our 

love 

is

missing my dear

I am missing my sweet buns, lol. 
Wish he were here to lounge in on sundays..

I have to say this sucks. How can people do this? i miss our old routine. I miss how we use to drive to the beach and end up toasted on the beach. I haven't been to the beach this year. I haven't been much fun. Here I am on a Friday Night, watching Reba and drinking a coors light. Bought some Twisted Tea, Sweet Tea. I miss my life with him. I hate being here, but this is what I'd rather do than go out. It just wouldnt be much fun without him anyway. Not all that fond of random guys asking me to dance..Can't I just be left to my awesome drinks and music?!? lol. Some guys ignore my bling(wedding ring). What the Hell is Wrong with you!?  But, I get by, by ignoring them. So, home is way better. I'd rather be home anyway. 

missing my love

Sometimes it feels like I'm waiting for my life to start. Then when I look at it under a different light. It has started. I think the reason for this is because the person I'm sharing it with isn't here. He's off doing great things for the Army and this awesome country. I wish I could just live my life instead of sitting around waiting for it start. I have found a new hate in being alone. It's a new experience to overcome. It will strenghten our relationship. I love him and miss him soo much. I miss my husband. I love him with all my <3.

I wish he were home already! This war needs to end so I can have my husband back.

<3

Stick it!

Do you ever feel like hiding under a rock? Like your against the world and you just feel like sticking the finger? I feel like that right now.  Had a Hectic week, went from an accident to figuring out the rest of my life. Stuck with a delimma of choosing between a for sure paycheck with no freedom to infinite freedom and an unsure paycheck. It's between being happy and being unhappy. Should I stay unsatisfied with promised pay or happy and possibly poor? I have my husband, but I dont want all the weight on him to be responsible for the household. Granted I'll be utillizing the benefits of doing my service in the Army. I'll be back to being a Full Time Student and hopefully a Part Time Job. Sometimes I wonder if I'm being selfish and thinking about my happiness than a secure future for my husband and I. Maybe one day a Family. I can reclass but happiness and satisfaction is still unsure. All I'll ever know is my time so far in the Army. Should I just take the Risk and keep this lifestyle with little or no Bumps as far as finance? Or should I follow my lifetime goals and just persue my degree and trade my ACUs in for Scrubs?

 So much, so soon. I've been waiting for my ETS date to come. But the closer I get, the more nervous I get. Wish I could know the outcome of each choice and choose. If only life were so simple and easy. 

today was just one of those days that you thought would never end.

I think it would have been better if i could subtract some people from it. 

I love and miss my husband 

wish he were home.

I have memories to keep me happy.

But they cant compare to his touch.

I love him

I love him

Just Pictures

 New York City

 kitters

 Jason

 Us

Week 4

Hey there,
It's now June. Last Weekend was my one year anniversary. It was the hardest day ever. I kept busy all day to keep my mind off the day. I did receive the most beautiful flowers in the morning from my husband. It was very romantic. I love my husband. It took the edge off the day. I'm looking for new ways to past time. I'm now thinking of new hobbies I can do. So far, I want to sew. I want to create dresses anything. I love browsing Blogs on DIY Crafts. I love to try. Since I'm married, this might come in handy in the Future..lol. Nex stop is to master the art of BAKING, uhm..cookies. I'm terrible at cookies. Which is why I buy the frozen ready to bake cookies. 

I'm not the average woman that's familiar with "womanly duties". Sounds like something from the 50s. I'm more modern. I rather be outside than doing the "kitchen duties".  I rather have my husband do the cooking. I'm horrible I know. But, i'm getting better. I love Green Beans and chicken breast. Simple and Easy. I'm no Julia Child or Susie Homemaker. 

day 3

So ....
I'm about to scream...just to get the frustration out of my body. How can people do this?? This is torture. I'm all mixed emotions right now. Some memories are stuck in my head. Anything will remind me of him. I try to avoid pondering. Sometimes i feel like crying from being so overwhelmed. But then i remind myself that many have done this and made their marriage stronger. Waking up alone and knowing he's not here, is just disheartening. I have to stay strong and not give in...
All that keeps going through my head is what my Major said. That 

"the first 10 days are the hardest. Then, it gets better."

 This is my first go around. I miss him sooo much. Please God give me strength. I am in a new house. Only about two weeks worth of memories here...
The cat is all i have with me for comfort. 
I wish i could get over this now. 


Or sleep until he's back and this would have all been a bad dream. 

New Year's Trip to the Big Apple

New Year's Eve

Planet Hollywood Times Square.
 Having some drinks before the Ball Drop, which was right outside.

We definately paid for the Location.

Busy Busy

The view outside the Hotel Window

Our trip was exciting.

Getting there and back was tiring and crazy...

damn those toll booths...

I never carry Cash.

We dodged the cab drivers with our Lives
We jumped and dodged the puddles
Huge Mounds of Snow Everywhere

We had noodles, it was ...oh my god, were they good.

My shoes were white when I got there, i swear.

I loved the city.
New Years Day.

Open Bar+Time's Square+confetti+Music+food =

a bad morning
 we ventured on and saw the statue of Liberty. 

My heart broke when we visited St. Peter's Church near Ground Zero

  all those pictures of the missing.
Reminded me why I joined

 There's nothing like New York City.

Then we drove across the Brooklyn Bridge

Then Onward Home.

We were thankful for our quiet lfestyle..

The city that never sleeps, was too much for us.

Thank You New York.

I LOVE your Shiskabobs!

what a time i'm having...

I am missing my husband bad...

Sometimes i wish there was such a thing as a Time Machine...

I don't know if i'd fast forward or rewind my life...

I love it where it is ....

can't wait until I'm back in his arms...

This is the life of being dual military.

Rough.

But we understand our job.

The training.

The crazy hours.

The early mornings.

All we look forward to is the end of the day.

The Weekends.

Our time together.